When the time arrives,
the Winter's thunders
the Summer's snows
signify, the reborn of a new me.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Secondary
Today is another lesson for me.
4 things :
-i sucked in communication.
-i don't know how to make myself a comfortable person
-i failed to be a man
-my talent is not significant enough
But, Give me 3 years, i will come back with a brand new personality, you will see a new JS.
i told my teacher, and i promised myself, once im still alive, i will not survive,
i will live my life.
no matter how bad i did for my sejarah paper, one day i will create history. At least, memorable for everyone around me.
3 years is short,
though i failed my aim in secondary school.
but it doesn't matter,
it just leaving a blank spot in my memories. and i shall achieve it. for my next life.
my leadership life in CHS has finally came to an end. with no regrets.
如今，是自我增值的时候，为自己造福人群的意愿，再迈前一步。
4 things :
-i sucked in communication.
-i don't know how to make myself a comfortable person
-i failed to be a man
-my talent is not significant enough
But, Give me 3 years, i will come back with a brand new personality, you will see a new JS.
i told my teacher, and i promised myself, once im still alive, i will not survive,
i will live my life.
no matter how bad i did for my sejarah paper, one day i will create history. At least, memorable for everyone around me.
3 years is short,
though i failed my aim in secondary school.
but it doesn't matter,
it just leaving a blank spot in my memories. and i shall achieve it. for my next life.
my leadership life in CHS has finally came to an end. with no regrets.
如今，是自我增值的时候，为自己造福人群的意愿，再迈前一步。
Saturday, June 13, 2009
A Day with 0% of Depression
thats what i feel today.
I don't need to know what do you think about me. and,
neither you need to know what do I think about you.
as long as both of us are willing to spend a single moment with each other. and that's it.
this statement applies to every friend of mine.
成得朋友，自然会奉上互相迁就的心灵，那又何需太过在意对方怎么想自己。
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i deny the statement : 人不因别人的掌声而活. which is only half true.
观众的掌声是演员生涯的其中一部分，而
大众的认同是人生精彩的其中一个元素。
那些自认不活在观众的掌声之下的人，致以自己清高孤傲，到入黄土的那一刻还看不透红尘，自认怀才不遇，含恨而终。
these two "persoalan" filled my day. Friends, has no definite definition.
and the question "Is there pure friendship between boy and girls?" will never have an absolute answer, due to different perspective of different people.
I don't care about that,
I never give definition to anything in my life. Like : I may like a girl but it doesn't mean i want her to be my girlfriend.
No definition for anything and everything is the key to ultimate freedom.
That's what makes up my life.
I don't need to know what do you think about me. and,
neither you need to know what do I think about you.
as long as both of us are willing to spend a single moment with each other. and that's it.
this statement applies to every friend of mine.
成得朋友，自然会奉上互相迁就的心灵，那又何需太过在意对方怎么想自己。
+
i deny the statement : 人不因别人的掌声而活. which is only half true.
观众的掌声是演员生涯的其中一部分，而
大众的认同是人生精彩的其中一个元素。
那些自认不活在观众的掌声之下的人，致以自己清高孤傲，到入黄土的那一刻还看不透红尘，自认怀才不遇，含恨而终。
these two "persoalan" filled my day. Friends, has no definite definition.
and the question "Is there pure friendship between boy and girls?" will never have an absolute answer, due to different perspective of different people.
I don't care about that,
I never give definition to anything in my life. Like : I may like a girl but it doesn't mean i want her to be my girlfriend.
No definition for anything and everything is the key to ultimate freedom.
That's what makes up my life.
Thursday, June 4, 2009
距离
人河江长
无尽中的尽头
和无尽的尽头
仿佛三步
却又像三跪九叩。
不眠的淡定
和吃力的清醒
有零星，烙印
全然冲动的心情
又遭遇
抹煞感性的理性。
失控的频率
渐渐掘起
一种没有定位的距离
是残士，上天梯。
11:55pm
18.5.09
无尽中的尽头
和无尽的尽头
仿佛三步
却又像三跪九叩。
不眠的淡定
和吃力的清醒
有零星，烙印
全然冲动的心情
又遭遇
抹煞感性的理性。
失控的频率
渐渐掘起
一种没有定位的距离
是残士，上天梯。
11:55pm
18.5.09
Friday, May 29, 2009
Frisbee
Many times, i'd thought myself that.
i do not have talent in sports.
now the feeling strikes again. I just feel useless.
But i'm sure.
It is temporary. though.
maybe i just don't have talent in sports.
It had been some time when i started to play frisbee.
and the improvement seems, getting slower and slower.
until it is neglectable. and the feeling is.
the turning point is reaching. once i reached the maximum point.
my performance will get worse. as fast as the square graph for add maths.
god bless me.
im not emo. but just throwing tantrum. pointlessly.
i do not have talent in sports.
now the feeling strikes again. I just feel useless.
But i'm sure.
It is temporary. though.
maybe i just don't have talent in sports.
It had been some time when i started to play frisbee.
and the improvement seems, getting slower and slower.
until it is neglectable. and the feeling is.
the turning point is reaching. once i reached the maximum point.
my performance will get worse. as fast as the square graph for add maths.
god bless me.
im not emo. but just throwing tantrum. pointlessly.
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Fatigue
Human being sleeps 8 hours per day to get energetic.
I sleep 8 hours to get more sleepy.
It's the faith, and God says i can't sleep long.
5 hour is enough perhaps.
I may get organ damage soon,
my liver, perhaps.
but who cares. i don't even too.
It doesn't matter that i die earlier.
i just wanna die with honour, and no regrets.
and stop wasting time for doing stupid things, facing stupid problems, looking stupid incident.
Im born to do something for the world.
Distractions. Fuck Off.
每每想起你和她的关系，我就觉得不可思议。
可每当想起你能乱我思绪，因为这一点小事，
那是更加的，
不可思议。
I sleep 8 hours to get more sleepy.
It's the faith, and God says i can't sleep long.
5 hour is enough perhaps.
I may get organ damage soon,
my liver, perhaps.
but who cares. i don't even too.
It doesn't matter that i die earlier.
i just wanna die with honour, and no regrets.
and stop wasting time for doing stupid things, facing stupid problems, looking stupid incident.
Im born to do something for the world.
Distractions. Fuck Off.
每每想起你和她的关系，我就觉得不可思议。
可每当想起你能乱我思绪，因为这一点小事，
那是更加的，
不可思议。
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Appetite
People says, happy people eats alot.
But today, i've lost my appetite.
The feelings came back to me again. but this time.
I feel im more useless.
well, i'd think i felt for you.
and i just don't get you anyway.
But today, i've lost my appetite.
The feelings came back to me again. but this time.
I feel im more useless.
well, i'd think i felt for you.
and i just don't get you anyway.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Orange
如果有一天一个人肯花他一生里的一段时间来听我倾诉心里一直沉淀着一段话，
我会从此飞起来。
然而，我的一生，至少到现在，都一直在花时间寻找着这一个人。
这个人不出现也罢，若隐若现却是最痛苦的。
今天，我不知道应不应该感谢上帝，
让我又发现了一样东西，
我一直引以为傲的就是我自我安慰的能力，在别人的眼中可能就被看成冷漠。
我知道我活在这个世上，大自然将安排一切又一切对我的伤害来是我更加坚强。
就算我被伤了九十九万九千九百九十九次，我依然期望着第一百万次将是我遇到这个人的时候。
我不会理会自己被伤害多少次，
令我在乎的是，在茫茫人海人生中，我能找到多少个能够令我坦白得倾诉心声，即使我知道，这些人也可能在以后中伤自己。
而最近，我似乎遇到了这一个人，
不管我希望她会是我的谁，
我更在乎的是，我在她心里，我到底是谁。
我会从此飞起来。
然而，我的一生，至少到现在，都一直在花时间寻找着这一个人。
这个人不出现也罢，若隐若现却是最痛苦的。
今天，我不知道应不应该感谢上帝，
让我又发现了一样东西，
我一直引以为傲的就是我自我安慰的能力，在别人的眼中可能就被看成冷漠。
我知道我活在这个世上，大自然将安排一切又一切对我的伤害来是我更加坚强。
就算我被伤了九十九万九千九百九十九次，我依然期望着第一百万次将是我遇到这个人的时候。
我不会理会自己被伤害多少次，
令我在乎的是，在茫茫人海人生中，我能找到多少个能够令我坦白得倾诉心声，即使我知道，这些人也可能在以后中伤自己。
而最近，我似乎遇到了这一个人，
不管我希望她会是我的谁，
我更在乎的是，我在她心里，我到底是谁。
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
When There is Still Something between us
《离缘》
正月至半
暗淡的心愁
那一丛林的背影后
是不断眨眼的激光
不管 是元宵烟火
还是大自然的镁光灯
在燃烧着 路人
不思家园的无奈。
半影月食
倾诉了彼此的缘头
而即将风干
那不去的心愁
紧锁瓶口。
9.2.09 正月十五
正月至半
暗淡的心愁
那一丛林的背影后
是不断眨眼的激光
不管 是元宵烟火
还是大自然的镁光灯
在燃烧着 路人
不思家园的无奈。
半影月食
倾诉了彼此的缘头
而即将风干
那不去的心愁
紧锁瓶口。
9.2.09 正月十五
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